Thoughts within thoughts within thoughts within thoughts

While free-

Being trapped by the ghost of what used to be chains

Will eat you alive

but If you allow its hunger

The previous sickness

To beg back in now

Sweet and fresh at first

Silently

Strung out and spun

Torn at the edges

Soporific grey skies

Blurred trees out the back window

On a winding familiar road

Muted memories and

It all comes running back

Flooding a well written manuscript

Ink blinding the prose

crashing with an allegory

never written down

Memorized by someone

Somewhere else

and suddenly freedom takes itself away once more.

/Shadows settle on the place, that you left/From the perfect start to the finish line/And if you’re still breathing, you’re the lucky ones/Setting fire to our insides for fun/Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone/Cause most of us are bitter over someone/Setting fire to our insides for fun/

Deep in forest the police found her body, cuts on her arms wanted by nobody. No people gather to remenisce her sins, she was once a fair haired maiden now with pasty white skin. Her name was honesty, but she wasn’t honest, called herself Hollie, called her that we promised. She was so positive, dreamed of better tomorrows, but the gangs and thugs she was with weren’t the ones to be followed. She’s a ghost now, just a ghost. She’s a ghost now, just a ghost. She wanted to be a dancer and her ribs began to show, she regretted eating birthday cake six months ago. Desperation unknown but you could see sorrow in her eyes as the booze was drained down her neck and her life was full of lies. She’s a ghost now, just a ghost. She’s a ghost now, just a ghost. She screamed at her reflection, threw her brush at the mirror, put a cigarette to her mouth to see if she could see things any clearer. Pulling out her own hair she remembered the tablets in the draw, the doctor told her one a day, she couldn’t take it anymore. She’s a ghost now, just a ghost. She’s a ghost now, just a ghost. Deep in the forest the press find their story, a talented ballet dancer didn’t find her glory. Rushed to be questioned asking what I knew, as the tears were streaming down my face, and what I said was true, she was just a girl, she was just a girl. She was just a girl, a scared girl.

Kõik veab luhta kuidagi.viimasel ajal eriti.
See muudab mind kurvaks. Ei oska end enam püsti ajada kui kordi nii mitmeid mind istukile tõugatakse.

Katki. Kohe täitsa puru.
Kuidas panna kokku puzzlet millel tükid on puudu?

Õues on kevad, poolenisti.

Looking out from underneath,
Fractured moonlight on the sea
Reflections still look the same to me,
As before I went under.

And it’s peaceful in the deep,
Cathedral where you cannot breathe,
No need to pray, no need to speak
Now I am under.

And it’s breaking over me,
A thousand miles onto the sea bed,
Found the place to rest my head.

Never let me go, never let me go.
Never let me go, never let me go.

And the arms of the ocean are carrying me,
And all this devotion was rushing out of me,
And the crashes are heaven, for a sinner like me,
The arms of the ocean deliver me.

Though the pressure’s hard to take,
It’s the only way I can escape,
It seems a heavy choice to make,
Now I am under.

And it’s breaking over me,
A thousand miles down to the sea bed,
Found the place to rest my head.

Never let me go, never let me go.
Never let me go, never let me go.

And the arms of the ocean are carrying me,
And all this devotion was rushing out of me,
And the crashes are heaven, for a sinner like me,
The arms of the ocean deliver me.

And it’s over,
And I’m going under,
But I’m not giving up!
I’m just giving in.

Oh, slipping underneath.
Oh, so cold, but so sweet.

In the arms of the ocean, so sweet and so cold,
And all this devotion I never knew at all,
And the crashes are Heaven, for a sinner released,
And the arms of the ocean,
Deliver me.

Never let me go, never let me go.
Never let me go, never let me go.

Deliver me.

Never let me go, never let me go.
Never let me go, never let me go.

Deliver me.

Never let me go, never let me go.
Never let me go, never let me go.

Never let me go, never let me go.
Never let me go, never let me go.

And it’s over,
And I’m goin’ under,
But I’m not givin’ up!
I’m just givin’ in.

Oh, slipping underneath.
Oh, so cold, but so sweet

(Source: endymiion, via iceandfevers)